Haru-Haru ... Day by Day ...

What's going on ?? Life's getting from BAD to WORSE ! I thought we were supposed to be happy after UPSR ?? Well , I thought ...

I thought about a lot of stuff .. But most of them didn't come true , One of them was about me and you . I thought that we would have be happy together , loving each other forever , but love didn't last after it drifted us apart ... I thought that this was true love , but it's just a dream that's gonna break us down , and tear us up into pieces . I thought that you loved me , I thought that we were meant to be , I thought we would be happy , I thought about a whole lot of things ... But it was all just thoughts , not dreams that come true ...

Love . Love . Love . Love . Love . Love ,
When I think of that particular word , your name popped up into my mind . When I see your face , my heart pounded and never stopped ... When you were in my arms , I never wanted you to leave again ... When you were in my heart , I'll lock the door and keep you there forever ...
But that's the past , and it will never repeat again ...

Wants .
I wanted to make this last ... I wanted to prove that loving someone can be happy ... I wanted to make everything go the way we planned it ... I wanted to forget everything and start a new life with you ... I wanted to live a happy life ... Stuff that I wanted .

Realizes .
I realized that you were the perfect one . I realized that we were meant to be . I realized that our love never lasted . I realized that it takes more than a heart to love someone . I realized all of that when it was too late ...

I don't want you to go , but what can I do to stop you ?? There's barely anything that I can do right after you went . I'll still be loving you with all that I have . And there's nothing else that I can do other than that .

With each paasing day , my life goes from BAD to WORSE , and WORSE to WORST . I really can't stand it anymore , I tried to make a shout but nobody could hear it . I tried looking for a way out , but I'm stuck in the maze of your heart . I can't hold on anymore .

I'm just sorry for everything I did to you , Sorry for making life a worse place for you to live in . Sorry for letting you bear all the pain . Sorry for not understanding how you felt . Sorry for not being there for you when you neede me the most . Sorry for tearing you apart and killing your wonderful dreams . I'm sorry .

I guess there's nothing more that I can say ... I'll love you forever with my heart , my soul and everything that I got .

Bye ~

Breaking point ~ Gotta Let go ...

Everything was going so smoothly ~ Everything was like a fairytale ~ Everything was like everlasting ~ Everything was perfect ~ Everything was JUST A DREAM ~

Tearing apart ~ Breaking down ~ Burning up ~ Heart-Breaking ~

Forever & Always ?? Everlasting ?? Never-Ending ?? Meant To Be ??

I realized that fairy tales don't come true , life doesn't end with a happy ending . I realized that love is impossible . I realized that everything we've been through was just a dream . I realized that true love never existed . I realized that it was a little game and you gave up .

I'm trying to know why . But even if I did , it wouldn't change anything right ?? Yeah , this is permanent . This , I guess , would be the life we would be going through every day .....

Most of us would be thinking that life's happy ... I thought about it before , it will be happy if you do what you wanna do , and say what you wanna say .. It's freaking happy that way . So who am I to stop you from being happy ?? I'm just another ordinary guy . Yeah , I should be asking myself : " WTF is my problem ?? " .

I guess this is it .. I undertand what you're doing ... It's the best for you and me . I don't care about anything else , but on one condition , be happy . Live it with happiness , I guess that's the most that I could ask from you .

I think that's all ... Forver I will love you with everything I got , I swear .. But just move on , you can live happier :) That's what I want from you :) So deal ??

With love ,
AaronJaredNg :)

UPSR ... Two weeks time

Ooops ... So long since I've posted x( Sorry :( Haiz , What to do?? got UPSR leh ... Preparing like hell weih .. Everyday study , study , study , study and study ... Haiz.. Sien la
So how is everybody ?? Hehe ... I'm okay ... hehe , Gotta study rite ? Tiring right ?? Pressuring rite ?? Life taking right ?? Killing rite ?? Sien right ?? I understand too but this is the last push guys ... WE can't do this xD haha I sound like a wise guy xD haha But really , do this for you family , friends , teachers . Make them all proud of you ... It'll all end very soon :) So okay yeah ?? Study like mad yeah ??


After UPSR , remember to come to my class and look for me .. We'll be partying like monkeys that time xD But before that WE'll have to go through UPSR first ... So let's fight till the very end ... Get good results and then do everything you ever wanted to do ... This is the very first war in our lives ... So give everyone a good impression of ourself to people .. :) So jia you :) So gambateh (: So tambah minyak : D So let's all oil okay ??

Seriously ... Let's give it the final push ... We'll make it to the top ... We'll be all we wanted to be after this :) So bersabarlah ... So chill la ... TWO WEEKSSS leh .... Can't you guys be patient and wait?? It's gonna be worth it if we all do what we are suppose to do like study now ... It'll pay off when it's over ... Believe me , you'll be more than happy when you get results that are satisfying :)

So deal yeah ?? Study hard and then do well in UPSR :) After that , we'll get out of this ferocious nightmare :)


Sorry for the short post .. Today's one was just for encouraging all those people who are like me , those who are lazy to study ... Btw , to my O.A.O , ILOVEYOUUU :) hehe :) I 'll support you all if you guys support me ... We'll fight this back to back :) Hand to hand :) Bye ... Gtg study liao :/ Haha ... HARDWORK pays off :) BYEBYE :)


SAYONARA :)) ((:

Ooops xD Since when was the last post??

Aloha =) hehe =) Omg !!! hehee I'm just SO DAMN FREAKINGGGG happy now xD Haha... Thanks to those people who wished me Happy Birthday and oso Happy BIRDday , xD haha , wth weih ... =) haha thanks a lot though =)





Haha... My birthday was so awesome cause of you guys =) Heeheee =) So how's life for the readers out there?? Got any problems that I can help with?? But no matter what you do or wanna do , Do it with a big grin on your face =) that's what i wanna see on everyone's face okay?? Deal??





Wow, haha today was such an lucky day for me weih xD I should go buy the Toto number 2207 xD haha, Today was Thursday , so like normal , a few of us would do stuff against the school RULES xD So we went to the FOOTBALL FIELD xD Want to know how we got in rite?? Haha We climbed in like lil monkeys =) We were experts so it wasn't much of a prob to us xD haha... We played till we were tired and I decided to get out of the FOOTBALL FIELD !!! And when i was out , Marissa and Amanda told me that there was teachers looking at us when we were playing ... But guess who that teacher was?? Hahah ... It was this teacher hu was always EXTREMELY nice to me ... =) It was ......... ( DRUM ROLL ) xD ....... It was CIkgu Fairuz =) Wow , lucky rite? xD He actually just let us all go leh xD hehe Addition to that, he said that we could play on Thursdays leh =) He said he would unlock the gate for us so nice rite ?? =)



Thanks to him , those people who likes football can now join me and a few more people on thursday =) Haha, but only from 4.30 to 5.30 la so come earlier la =)



To this very SPECIAL girl in my heart =) I LOVE YOU !!! Haha I guess you yourself know who you are =) Sorry readers xD Im kinda crazy liao dun blame me k?? Most probably because of those STUPID EXAMS =( Now, my brain is fried and my brain juice habis liao xD Haha jk jk dun worry im ok =) Just that i would be a lil SIAO la xD



Haha ... okay ... Btw, did u noe that Kent Leang not in school cause of HIGH FEVER ?? :( Yer, damn bored without him leh =( Haiz so everyone hu has read this post ust pray and hope for him to get well soon kay?? Or else I'll be angry xD



And have to promise me this .. Smile forever okay?? haha =) Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile =) haha =) We'll be the champions of Smileys =) xD



Haha ... So erm sorry for the short post today =( haiz gotta teman that SPECIAL SOMEBODY in my heart today =) gotta chat with her =) just miss her a lot =) so u readers sleep early too okay?? I don't want your PARENTS to be nagging at you the whole day xD haha gudnit =) Sweet Dreams =) Byebye =) See you guys again =)

SAYONARA !!!! =)

Back from Hulu Selangor =)

Heyya =) Aloha =) Haha, ao long since I last posted... sorry readers.... gomenasai =( Hooray =) Woohooo xD Haha, finally my dream came true, I'm gonna represent Selangor =)

I miss you guys a lot... But I missed you the nist =( Haiz , so sad leh , couldn't see you for like a whole week =( Luckily we could text =)

Okayy. How's school?? Heard that loads of things happened when I wasnt around... Tell me... Tell me and leave a message in the CHATTBBOXX on the right hand side ok?? Im bored =_=

And I heard that Kent Leang's leg got hurt during high jump... Please tell me more info about it... I pray that he's ok cause he was the bestest friend on earth... Please tell me what happened too cause I seriously dun wanna live on earth without knowing what's happening ...

One word for the trip : AWESOMEEEE !!!! ;D Seriously, It was. We stayed in a apartment in Hulu Selangor... It was named Serendah Golf Resort but to me it was more like an apartment... It was surrouded with trees =) Imagine that guys xD It seriously was nice... The apartment was near the hill... And there was a road to go around the hill =) And one day after finishing our training from 10 am - 1 pm ... Our teacher took us on the journey aroud the hill xD It was fanstastic... And all of us were like "WOW" , "COOL" and of course " WHY NO MONKEYS??!!" xD And then we went back to the apartment...

Wow... The people there were greater than the scenery =) I can say that it was a great time that we had there... The people were friendly and at that moment I could see that we'll make great friends =) I love that place... And I'm going again on the 3rd =)

Okayy ... Now's your turn to be the story-teller... Remember to comment on my posts and oso leave messages on the chatbox ;D Lazy to type liao lar so remember to tell me about what happened in school this few days=)

Okayy, sorry for the short post today readers... will post more nxt time... i promise =)\


SAYONARA !!!!

The wrong things at the wrong time...

Why?? Why?? Why?? Why is everything bad happening at this time of my life?? Is it a challenge?? I'm not going down but I needa know that you'll be there for me.. I know about the last minute thing to go to Hulu Selangor to train, I'm sorry marissa=( I'm also sad cause I can't do what I need and want to do... I'm so so so sorry ;( I broke the chain again, I'm drifting us apart once again... I'll try my best to make it up to you, I promise...

I guess the world's never unfair... But I'll swear that I'll hold your hand through it all.. I'm gonna fight for this, and I want you to fight for this too...

I'm just posting this to say sorry... Sorry marissa=( To the readers, I'll post when I come back from Hulu Selangor nxt thursday ok?? BYE
Goodnite, Gomenasai

SAYONARA

Miracles that I hope for never comes true =(

Im hoping that we'll get back together like how we used to be, I've messed up again... If only you're still there, let me explain it to you... I don't wanna live on earth without you, you're my everything,I can't lose you. I can't miss you, I can't hug you anymore, I can't hold you anymore, I can't live with no more you, I hope you're still there to read this cause this is really dedicated to you...

I reallly just need a chance to explain, Let me do it, I'm not and never gonna let you go. I love you and I know you feel the same way too. So why can't we be together?? I've messed up, I know that, I just need one last chance. If I really ever break your heart again, you can just walk away, just give me one last chance please, I can't smile a day without you here, I can't breathe cause there's no you anymore, I can't eat anymore cause I've been thinking and thinking bout you, I've lost everything, How's that ok?? =(

I really need you in my life marissa... I DON'T EVER WANTED TO LOSE YOU, you know that too, I really can't do anything with no you. I guess you're mad and sad at the same time. I hope you're there to read this. I really really am sorry. I really really wanna love you, Just one last chance, I know you don't trust me anymore but I hope that you'll just put a lil faith into me, cause I never ever cried over a girl b4 and you're the first. I really love you a lot, we were meant to be. After we went through so many things before, why can't we continue to be together?? After so many things, are we just gonna let everything go just like that?? Well, I'm not and I hope you're not too. So please let me explain. I hoping that we can be together forever. Cause our love is stronger than anything on earth. You know it too. Cause we were meant to be. To be with you is my first and my last thought when I met you cause I knew you were the one. So I'm really hoping you're there marissa. cause I really really never ever loved a girl as much as you b4. please read this cause I'm not willing to let you go.

I know I've messed up. Now, I'm just hoping for one last chance from you, If I break my promise again, you can just break off all the connections with me. You can slap me if you want to, I'm willing to do anything just to be with you. You can do whatever you want, please give this last chance... Really hoping that you're there. Cause my love for you never ever changed, you're my all, you're the best, you're the one for me and I love you so.
PLEASE READ THIS MARISSA =(