I screwed up again... hope you're still reading this

This post isnt for readers... It's dedicated to you.
I know I broke your heart today... I can't do anything other than sms-ing you... Since you're not replying, I hope you're reading my blog... Cause this is really meant for you... I really love you and always did. I know I did a very big mistake today, But I really still love you alone, ther's no other girl in my heart, Believe me cause you're my one and only... I'm drowning without your love.. I need you by my side and I guess it's just really my fault this time... I really hope that we'll get back to the time when we used to be, cause I really miss your messages, I don't think i can stand a day without you... cause you'e my EVERYTHING... What am I gonna do?? Cause I still love you a lot... You found me and I guess I made a big mistake and that made the distance between me and you further, causing me to lost you... I hope you're still there cause you meant everything to me and I can't afford to lose you...
I know what I did was totally wrong, I know I broke your heart, I know I pissed you off, I know you won't forgive me. I know you are still there, and I know there's still hope... I want you and I need you more than anything else... Like i said before, If it wasn't for you, I guess I wouldn't be living here on earth anymore, you gave encouragement when I needed it the most, you were there for me when I needed someone to talk to, you were there for me when I needeed help, you were there for me when I needed you..
I just got a question for you : Are you willing to give me a second chance??
Answer it and I'll swear that I won't keep bugging you if it's a no
Bye Really hope you're reading this cause you know you're everything to me

A post that shouldnt be on my blog

I thought what we had was ETERNAL LOVE. I thought WE could make this into something that'll LAST FOREVER.
I really didnt know till somone told me... Nevermind, I just think that we'll have to forget about everything and start again, shouldnt we?? Nvm, I'm JUST OVERREACTING.... so so sorry... nvm... tim to forget bout this thingy =)

You treated me damn freakingly well... ILY!!! haha Thanks for everything...
Damn tired these days weih.... Every day oso sleep in class when I'm in tuition xD haha... somemore teacher never scold xD x2 Haha, the freaking teacher infront talking crap, I'm behind either playing or sleeping, so damn boring weih!! Hate my class more and more xD
ok short post today

sorry readers got to go... tomorow got training at 8.3o a.m. - 10.30p.m. so I got to rest early=( sleep early too readers nitezz

SAYONARA

Here we go again....

Woohooo!!!! Tomorow's the big day !!! I'm gonna play in the tournament tomorow..... So damn FREAKING EXCITED!!! Wish me luck people ;) Hope that it'll go the way it should go =)

I'm just damn freaking excitedd la.. btw, i spoke to XXXX ytd, sorry ya.... cant write the name =( erm... she said I was never sorry =( which I think is true, She's was right... I was never there for her, She wanted to die, She was emo-ing, She was sad, She was dissapointed, and yet I couldnt change anything, Sometimes I try to be there for MY FRIENDS, but I'm just USELESS,

I never really did SOMETHING to help THEM, all I did was stand there and watch THEM fall, All I needed was THEM, and all I ever did was bully THEM... Nevermind.... I'll try to change and I'm sry for EVERYTHING I EVER DID TO YOU, AND TO THEM.....

Ok... time to change the topic xD let's smile through-out the day =) Dun emo!!! Haha, I realize that I'm much more happier now =) ok, hmmm.. and fyi, the girl is not MEIGIE, And Meigie... Don't regret making your choice cuz your future is the path you took, pick wisely,haha =)

I'm shutting the door, No turning back, I'm used to missing YOU... Miss your voice but not anymore, I'm tryin to erase YOU from MY MIND.... I'm not gonna fall in the trap of yours anymore.. Tryin to erase the happy memories, There's NO MORE YOU.... I'm leaving your world for your own good and mine...

It's better IF we had more time together but it's too late..
The MEMORIES are fading away... I want to pull you close but all u ever wanted me to do is let you go, then you just go out of MY HEART and never would come into IT again. I'm DONE, IT'S OVER like you said, I'm done with missing you everytime before I sleep...

I told you that I LOVE YOU, But you're the one who left me miserable... I've trusted you and it's the worst mistake cuz now I'm on my own... You can't walk back into MY LIFE, We didnt really had anything but LIES....
I gave you MY WORD and I PROMISED to love you forever and ever, You had your chance and now it's over

Just go... Just go... Just go... Just go... Just go...

There's nothing inside me that still feels connected to YOU, It's a nightmare... looking at the way everything going now, it seriously just kills me.... Just go.... You left me alone in the darkness... To me, YOU'RE already gone in the dark... I'm fighting with my tears and my fears... I'm fearing to lose but looks like I already did... I'm don't wanna cry over you anymore cuz it's gone... I try to relax cuz YOU came and YOU left and it all went by so so fast...

You're already GONE... You're already GONE... You're already GONE... You're already GONE... You're already GONE...

I shouldnt love YOU but I want to... what's wrong with me? I'm getting duller and duller without YOU by my side... I shouldnt see YOU but I cant just look away.... Cuz I dunno how to stop this feeling I have for YOU... I've tried my best at moving on but I just seem to fail... And I've tried my best to let go of YOU but I just don't want to so what should I do right here right now??

It's getting hard to be around YOU, There's so much I can't say to YOU... Do you want me to hide the feelings and look the other way?? Just so you know that it's been hard for me to stay happy without knowing YOU would be there for me anymore... This feeling is taking control of me and I can't help it... This emptiness is killing me and I'm wondering why I've waited so long for YOU, Looking back and finally I realized that U would never love me from the beginning =(

Btw, wish me luck for tomorow yea?? haha thx and pls continue to comment in my CHATBOX on the right =) Arigato xD Thanks for the support =)
Done with this post and I'm done with YOU...

SAYONARA!!!

People Changed.... Is it a good thing or a bad thing??

Hey, first, i gotta apologize for not posting for so long d... Sry ya, i seriously didn't have the mood to post, So it was dead huh?? And remember to wish me luck for my BASKETBALL TOURNAMENT next Monday!!!! wooohoooo!!! So damn happy weih, can ponteng sekolah xD haiz, a little down cuz of some things, should I tell u??? or should I just keep it in my heart?? (making a decision)..... Yea, I should tell u people, but.... You MUST tell me some SOLUTIONS on my chat box on the right =) but I wont say their names out

1. I gotta ask u guys this, what do u think of people changing their attitude?? I think I'm not that close to you guys anymore, I dunno wat to do, should I just walk up to you guys and just talk like best friends?? I know things aren't the way they are anymore, I cant even be myself, I'm just lost in this world...

2. What's wrong with me?? Is it that hard to let go of a friend or a love one?? Listening to She's Gone by SUPER JUNIOR, and it reminds me of you, Is this a feeling I should just forget about?? Or should I out more effort and make this feeling into something EVERLASTING?? I guess it's a path I'll be choosing, I'm on my own now....

3. What the hell am I waiting for?? There's so many opportunities out there tht I could just grab with my hand, Should I wait?? Should I move on?? Should I stop?? It's gonna be an experience I'll never forget...

I guess in life there's nothing more important than happiness, I'll telll everyone with problems to just overcome it with a big grin on their faces, But not I'm the one with the problems and Should I just let it all go?? I'm LOST, I need guidance, but there's nobody out there that can help me, I'm screaming as loud as I can, but yet no one hears me. I'm lost in this place....

Is it really tht bad?? The feelings of mine are confusing me, and I don't even dare to take a step infront without knowing that you're by my side, maybe it's true that i will never ever live without you....

You changed.. You're not that girl I used to know anymore... It's all lies. day by day I love u more and more....
but It's oveeeeeeeeer this time, it's over, it's over, it's over, it's over....

How do you sleep?? I have a hard time sleeping cuz all I do is think of you but I just can't have you, Should I even love you?? I'm living my dream and I guess it's time to get up and start it all over, But how am I going to do that when you're gone??
Suggest some solutions or ways please and thankiuu....

End of this problematic post

SAYONARA!!!

Sick = Hell

WTH=( wth is wrong with M!!! Im sick=( I get sick like once a week, last week... I caught a flu =( the week b4 last week, I caught fever MY BODY??!!!

Nvm, time for me to change topic =) haha, spent my WHOLE DAY at HOME playing Naruto Ultimate Ninja 5!!! It was so damn fun =) but was so dam bored cuz nobody sms-ed ME=( but gt some IRRITATING IDIOTS kept calling ME!!! WTH!!!!

Damnit, tmr i gotta do FOUR TEST PAPERS !!! =( I hate being sick!!! =( Now im stuck with studying, I hate studying, and Im not a nerd so I dun study..... No offense to THE NERDS!!! xD
Haha, haiz hope I could just copy answers for all the TEST PAPERS!!! =( Nvm.... Better wish me luck for my BM, MATHS AND CHINESE=) If not i have to study more than usual at home cuz MY DAD wont be satisfied with MY RESULTS!!!! I'll do the best I can la=)

I love LAST SATURDAY la..... LE-YON, ADRIAN and I went crazy!!! xD And WE invented a new game!!! U guys wanna try?? LE-YON fell down five times and HE barely could STAND straight anymore!! xD It's so dam fun weih!!! ADRIAN mistook a stem of a plant as LE-YON's toe bone xD We were laughing and fooling around like monkeys xD If u paid RM10 just to spend a week with us, U'll be going home in a shape of a MONKEY, GORILLA, KANGAROO or BABOON XD Haha, U'LL BE LAUGHING YOUR HEADS OFF, guarenteed !!!! It was so much fun that we forgot to eat lunch, we didnt want to play basketball or do anything else xD

If u guys wanna noe more about this newly-invented game, contact Aaron(0173997894) or Qian Rou(0123307262) Thankiuu =)

Haha, so now, I think I gtg study again=( Damnit, it makes me feel like a TOTAL NERD!!!! And I hate NERDS!!!! As least i gt MY PHONE WITH ME!!! =) So.... i would probably listen to music instead of studying xD Or maybe I'll Sms ppl=) OK, i GTG =( WILL PROMISE TO POST MORE NEXT TIME=) and once again, hope everyone out there would get PLEASANT MARKS for their TEST PAPERS =)
BB=(

ADEUS

=) xD =P (= =D

Haha=) woohoo xD so damn lucky =)

Aloha once again xD Kinda hyper now ( jumping up and down like a kangaroo) xD haha, it's not bcuz I eat too much sugar =) but I'm seriously happy =) haha =)

Btw, are kangaroo's hyper?? (confused)

First, I gotta say sry cuz I didn't post for so long d =( haiz kinda bz studying for exam =) finally my dad allowed me to use the com =) I was so dam happy weih, listening to IT'S OVER by Jesse Mccartney=) I seriously LOVE it weih=) Music is Life !!! Agreed??

Just love MUSIC la=) ... Btw sry for misunderstanding u guys and I'm sry for using foul languages on my OWN BLOG, Shame on me =( Just so sry, hope u guys can forgive me and PLEASE STOP WRITING THOSE WORDS ON MY CHATBOX!!!! Write in somewhere else when u wanna scold ME or someone else, tHAnKs =)

Now, I'm so dam WORRIED for my EXAM RESULTS 0.o the zuo wen was so damn FREAKING HARD!!! Wth, why the teachers so nerdy wan?? make the questions so FREAKING HARD for us( Lick hung students), Damnit

Oh, forgot to tell u guys the reason i was happy =) There are a few though =)
Let's see... Hmmm
The number 1 reason is i saw Chee Wei on the first Saturday tuition xD haha but he still remained the same xD still VERY VERY SHORT XD Jk Jk, but he seriously didn't change at all=)
Numberh 2... My jie (Farah Elina) is coming back to LICK HUNG on 15th (a Monday) woohooooo xD I'm so damn happy =) can see her d
Number thhh-rrreee.... Mitch, Mei Yu, Jeff, Jun Hong, Kuan Aeng and Lin Xuan forgave ME =) I'm so relieved =) But Euwern still is angry (sighs)


And when Farah comes back, we all ask her to belanja us k??? xD My revenge cuz she nvr ajak me to eat at SRI MELUR!!!!!!!! Dam bad de lorh =(

And hope u guys can pass the exam with FLYING COLOURS=) Cuz di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada jalan =) Izit correct?? Correct me if I'm wrong and continue leaving comments and continue dropping by to say HI =)


Thanks again for not commenting with the f*** and those other words... thankiuuu =)

So i guess that's it for this post =( Sorry but i promise will post more some other days =)

Sayonara!!!

=) =) =) =)

Hard to forget the relationship

Telling me to get over it?? If u guys wanna noe more, listen to the song HARU-HARU sang by BIGBANG (english subbed) u guys would noe my meaning after listening, u think i can forget ????? no i seriously cant, i gave my heart to u... I wont forget u, if u're happy then i guess i'll have to let u go... dun wanna feel this way, but it's over aint it?? how can i live with no more you?? see me through with no more u, wat am i gonna do?? cant believes ther's no more u, i try n try to forget u, but i take the good memories and it saddens me whenever we were laughing together. it really was happy, i wanna go back to the time when there was me n u. guess it's just impossible =( =( )= )=