Dreams ..

Dreams were never meant to be , were never maent to come true , were never meant to be happy things . Nightmares , they do happen . It's like dejavu , evrything's happening again :( I can't live like this anymore .

Things weren't the way it was anymore , everything's tearing apart . Do you even love me ?? Was it a dream ?? I don't understand . I love ____ , I need ____ , I miss ____ , I want ____ , I'm crazy in love with ____ :(

Sorry for short post , got no mood :(

Boring =.=

Sienn like hell la !!! What can I do in school ?? Play basketball ?? Play football ?? Still freaking sienn la x( Damn weih , I miss the times when I get to teman you the whole afternoon :( It was so happy and fun that time . :( I don't know whether I will get that chance again or not :( Hope that I can la .

So what's going on recently ?? Tell me stories , I'm bored . Hang-out with me , I need someone to talk to . Bored like hell weih , can someone save me from this kingdom of boredomness ?? It kills to live in this kingdom .

Life's unfair . Everyone's gone crazy . Something is wrong . Haha . I'm not emo just some parts of a song . Argh !!!!! Why isn't that girl online ?? I need to start typing stuff la , my hands tak boleh tahan liao larh !! Come online leh , anyone but it's best if that person was you :D

But do you care ?? I'm not sure la . What to do ?? Should I ask you ?? Don't know . CONFUSED :S Arghh , confusion x( Don't know where to run to , who to run to :( Need help x( Okay , stop with the unhappy things would I ??

Ermmmm .... What to type leh ?? Feel like typing 100 pages of words but I don't know what to type xP Oh , haha . Found a story . Saya akan menceritakannya dalam Bahasa Malaysia , boleh tak ??

Hari ini , saya ditampar oleh seorang pemuda yang berisi semasa saya sedang bermain bola keranjang . xD Pada masa itu , saya betul-betul ingin menampar orang itu dengan sekuat-kuatnya tetapi saya dapat menenangkan hati saya dengan hanya menengok ke arah orang tersebut xD Orang tersebut ialah ... Nanti baru saya akan memberitahu rakan sekalian x) Saya sendiri pun tidak tahu apa sebabnya hatiku akan tenang ketika saya menengoknya xD Selain itu , hatiku berdebar-debar apabila dia lalu di hadapan saya . Saya ingin bersamanya sekali lagi , tetapi ... saya fikir mungkin saya tidak mempunyai tuah untuk menjadi teman lelakinya lagi :(

Okay xD How's my BM ?? Good right ?? I know xD Joking . I'm not that perasan . I'm not a NERD okay ?? Don't call me that okay ?? Thank you for your cooperation :)
Hehe , I just think I LOVE HER !!! I'm SIAO d x)

Haha , sorry . I'm crazy till I can't type anymore so sorry x( Sorry for short post . Post again sometime . Nights guys and girls : ) Sweet dreams :D

SAYONARA :)

What's going on ??

What's wrong ?? What's going on right now ?? What's tearing us apart ?? Everything's going the wrong way . Unexpected things are happening right now , so what do I do ? Cause I still love you ..

I don't know what's happening , I don't know what to do , I don't know how you feel , I don't know why stuff like this are happening , I don't know what to say , I don't know what's right and wrong . This stuff happened after you left . I can't say much , I gotta let you go , it's for your own good right ?? You're better off without me , I should be happy if you're happy . So I guess this is it .

I'm just sorry . I keep making mistakes . I know I'm wrong . But at least , let me know what I did wrong . I swear that I'll never talk to you ever again . Just go on , it was always what you wanted right ??

I'm thinking about you , I'm thinking about the way we used to be , it was nice , perfect . But it's all the past now , let's just move on . Bye . I'll stop bugging you . You're free , run and never look back , leave the past behind and get along .

Our final goodbye . :(

Haru-Haru ... Day by Day ...

What's going on ?? Life's getting from BAD to WORSE ! I thought we were supposed to be happy after UPSR ?? Well , I thought ...

I thought about a lot of stuff .. But most of them didn't come true , One of them was about me and you . I thought that we would have be happy together , loving each other forever , but love didn't last after it drifted us apart ... I thought that this was true love , but it's just a dream that's gonna break us down , and tear us up into pieces . I thought that you loved me , I thought that we were meant to be , I thought we would be happy , I thought about a whole lot of things ... But it was all just thoughts , not dreams that come true ...

Love . Love . Love . Love . Love . Love ,
When I think of that particular word , your name popped up into my mind . When I see your face , my heart pounded and never stopped ... When you were in my arms , I never wanted you to leave again ... When you were in my heart , I'll lock the door and keep you there forever ...
But that's the past , and it will never repeat again ...

Wants .
I wanted to make this last ... I wanted to prove that loving someone can be happy ... I wanted to make everything go the way we planned it ... I wanted to forget everything and start a new life with you ... I wanted to live a happy life ... Stuff that I wanted .

Realizes .
I realized that you were the perfect one . I realized that we were meant to be . I realized that our love never lasted . I realized that it takes more than a heart to love someone . I realized all of that when it was too late ...

I don't want you to go , but what can I do to stop you ?? There's barely anything that I can do right after you went . I'll still be loving you with all that I have . And there's nothing else that I can do other than that .

With each paasing day , my life goes from BAD to WORSE , and WORSE to WORST . I really can't stand it anymore , I tried to make a shout but nobody could hear it . I tried looking for a way out , but I'm stuck in the maze of your heart . I can't hold on anymore .

I'm just sorry for everything I did to you , Sorry for making life a worse place for you to live in . Sorry for letting you bear all the pain . Sorry for not understanding how you felt . Sorry for not being there for you when you neede me the most . Sorry for tearing you apart and killing your wonderful dreams . I'm sorry .

I guess there's nothing more that I can say ... I'll love you forever with my heart , my soul and everything that I got .

Bye ~

Breaking point ~ Gotta Let go ...

Everything was going so smoothly ~ Everything was like a fairytale ~ Everything was like everlasting ~ Everything was perfect ~ Everything was JUST A DREAM ~

Tearing apart ~ Breaking down ~ Burning up ~ Heart-Breaking ~

Forever & Always ?? Everlasting ?? Never-Ending ?? Meant To Be ??

I realized that fairy tales don't come true , life doesn't end with a happy ending . I realized that love is impossible . I realized that everything we've been through was just a dream . I realized that true love never existed . I realized that it was a little game and you gave up .

I'm trying to know why . But even if I did , it wouldn't change anything right ?? Yeah , this is permanent . This , I guess , would be the life we would be going through every day .....

Most of us would be thinking that life's happy ... I thought about it before , it will be happy if you do what you wanna do , and say what you wanna say .. It's freaking happy that way . So who am I to stop you from being happy ?? I'm just another ordinary guy . Yeah , I should be asking myself : " WTF is my problem ?? " .

I guess this is it .. I undertand what you're doing ... It's the best for you and me . I don't care about anything else , but on one condition , be happy . Live it with happiness , I guess that's the most that I could ask from you .

I think that's all ... Forver I will love you with everything I got , I swear .. But just move on , you can live happier :) That's what I want from you :) So deal ??

With love ,
AaronJaredNg :)

UPSR ... Two weeks time

Ooops ... So long since I've posted x( Sorry :( Haiz , What to do?? got UPSR leh ... Preparing like hell weih .. Everyday study , study , study , study and study ... Haiz.. Sien la
So how is everybody ?? Hehe ... I'm okay ... hehe , Gotta study rite ? Tiring right ?? Pressuring rite ?? Life taking right ?? Killing rite ?? Sien right ?? I understand too but this is the last push guys ... WE can't do this xD haha I sound like a wise guy xD haha But really , do this for you family , friends , teachers . Make them all proud of you ... It'll all end very soon :) So okay yeah ?? Study like mad yeah ??


After UPSR , remember to come to my class and look for me .. We'll be partying like monkeys that time xD But before that WE'll have to go through UPSR first ... So let's fight till the very end ... Get good results and then do everything you ever wanted to do ... This is the very first war in our lives ... So give everyone a good impression of ourself to people .. :) So jia you :) So gambateh (: So tambah minyak : D So let's all oil okay ??

Seriously ... Let's give it the final push ... We'll make it to the top ... We'll be all we wanted to be after this :) So bersabarlah ... So chill la ... TWO WEEKSSS leh .... Can't you guys be patient and wait?? It's gonna be worth it if we all do what we are suppose to do like study now ... It'll pay off when it's over ... Believe me , you'll be more than happy when you get results that are satisfying :)

So deal yeah ?? Study hard and then do well in UPSR :) After that , we'll get out of this ferocious nightmare :)


Sorry for the short post .. Today's one was just for encouraging all those people who are like me , those who are lazy to study ... Btw , to my O.A.O , ILOVEYOUUU :) hehe :) I 'll support you all if you guys support me ... We'll fight this back to back :) Hand to hand :) Bye ... Gtg study liao :/ Haha ... HARDWORK pays off :) BYEBYE :)


SAYONARA :)) ((:

Ooops xD Since when was the last post??

Aloha =) hehe =) Omg !!! hehee I'm just SO DAMN FREAKINGGGG happy now xD Haha... Thanks to those people who wished me Happy Birthday and oso Happy BIRDday , xD haha , wth weih ... =) haha thanks a lot though =)





Haha... My birthday was so awesome cause of you guys =) Heeheee =) So how's life for the readers out there?? Got any problems that I can help with?? But no matter what you do or wanna do , Do it with a big grin on your face =) that's what i wanna see on everyone's face okay?? Deal??





Wow, haha today was such an lucky day for me weih xD I should go buy the Toto number 2207 xD haha, Today was Thursday , so like normal , a few of us would do stuff against the school RULES xD So we went to the FOOTBALL FIELD xD Want to know how we got in rite?? Haha We climbed in like lil monkeys =) We were experts so it wasn't much of a prob to us xD haha... We played till we were tired and I decided to get out of the FOOTBALL FIELD !!! And when i was out , Marissa and Amanda told me that there was teachers looking at us when we were playing ... But guess who that teacher was?? Hahah ... It was this teacher hu was always EXTREMELY nice to me ... =) It was ......... ( DRUM ROLL ) xD ....... It was CIkgu Fairuz =) Wow , lucky rite? xD He actually just let us all go leh xD hehe Addition to that, he said that we could play on Thursdays leh =) He said he would unlock the gate for us so nice rite ?? =)



Thanks to him , those people who likes football can now join me and a few more people on thursday =) Haha, but only from 4.30 to 5.30 la so come earlier la =)



To this very SPECIAL girl in my heart =) I LOVE YOU !!! Haha I guess you yourself know who you are =) Sorry readers xD Im kinda crazy liao dun blame me k?? Most probably because of those STUPID EXAMS =( Now, my brain is fried and my brain juice habis liao xD Haha jk jk dun worry im ok =) Just that i would be a lil SIAO la xD



Haha ... okay ... Btw, did u noe that Kent Leang not in school cause of HIGH FEVER ?? :( Yer, damn bored without him leh =( Haiz so everyone hu has read this post ust pray and hope for him to get well soon kay?? Or else I'll be angry xD



And have to promise me this .. Smile forever okay?? haha =) Smile Smile Smile Smile Smile =) haha =) We'll be the champions of Smileys =) xD



Haha ... So erm sorry for the short post today =( haiz gotta teman that SPECIAL SOMEBODY in my heart today =) gotta chat with her =) just miss her a lot =) so u readers sleep early too okay?? I don't want your PARENTS to be nagging at you the whole day xD haha gudnit =) Sweet Dreams =) Byebye =) See you guys again =)

SAYONARA !!!! =)