11.11.11

Hey people! :) Aloha! :) 11.11.11, such a special date isn't it? :D hehehehe. my day started off with waking up at 10 in the morning, and then I went out for lunch with Mi Jia and Wai Mun :D Awesome people yo. :) Friends that accept me for who I am, not what I have :)

Watched Don't be afraid of the dark with the both of them too. We were like mental people the whole day. But hey, isn't being crazy fun when you're with your besties? ;) hahahha.

But somehow, something went wrong. I felt confused. Confused about my feelings you know. Confused about what will happen? Because we ain't from the same religion? Because it isn't good for me to not please God, especially with the person I love. I wanna do everything with you. That includes praising God. And I know, it'll be a lot different if I didn't date a Christian.

I guess, this is life. You get confused and uncertain. You get insecure and scared. You get mixed up and messed up. But we've still gotta go through this little journey of ours. Stay strong peeps :) Hope your 11.11.11 wish would come true :D byeeeeeeeeee. :) nights :) sweet dreams :D

Sayonara! :D

Just want to scream.

When tears come streaming down my face, and when I lose something I can never replace, and I will try to leave you alone.



Nothing's gonna change the things you said, I just really wanna move out sometime, it's like I'm not treated like your family member. If that's so, tell me.


Who's perfect? I'm trying to be perfect, but there's a limit to everything, so when you're mad you just take us as punching bags and punch us all you want? Who the hell are you to treat me that way?

I can't remember how, I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight. I just wish I could get out of this world now.

Life.

Once thought it was awesome, now I gotta think twice. What's the meaning of life? I've have no idea.
But I guess the main point is to be happy? Yes, I know what I said could be painful. but I'm sorry. I hope this little sentence could make a difference.

When is it gonna turn okay?

Could I hold you tight? I hope you're smiling because of me. But even if it isn't because of me, I hope you're happy. Can we dance real slow? Just to make every moment last longer. I don't wanna let you go.

This is a feeling I've never felt, and it feels so wrong when I think it's right. I love the way you look, I love the way you smile, I love the way you look me in the eyes, I guess I just love everything 'bout you? You're worth every lil second of mine. Thanks for the smiles, laughs, retarded moments, and everything you said that made my day.

I think you're the missing piece in my life. All I can say is that I was glad I got a chance to meet you. You leave me speechless with every word you say, you're just so wonderful ya know? Nobody could ever take your place from my heart.

Long lost. Forever Seeking.

  Aloha :) Lol. I haven't blogged for so long already, thanks to Facebook. :P So, today was Rachel Ho's farewell. and it was a teary evening. Sad that she's going even when I don't really mix around with her. But I know she's a very nice and caring girl.

I had a lot of fun in the morning too :) Thanks to Looi Mi Jia :D He's an awesome dude, and he's a caring friend :) Thank God that I met him in my life :) Hope our friendship will last forever :)

As for tomorrow, it'll be another And1 Street ball tournament. But it's an under-14 one, so I guess it'll be a lot tougher. But most of all, I hope that Nicholas Choo, Garry Pang and I will have fun and get experience from it :) Hope that we'll have a great day tomorrow :)

No one would like to hear the painful truth . But people rather hear a sentence of truth than a 1000 sentences of lies. So speak the truth no matter what, tell people what you really think. Then maybe, just maybe, people will start liking you :)

I thought I could escape from this heartache, and this pain I feel it won't go away, and today, I'm officially missing you. And I could be your hero, I could take away all your pain, I could make you never look back. But would you save my soul tonight?

You never fail to take my breath away, with every single word you say, and I will stay with you forever. Bucket full of tears, and I'm still here waiting. And baby, how much I wished you were mine.

Hold on, I promise it'll get better, and when it rains, I'll hold you even tighter. I know it's right, because of the way you looked into my eyes, I'm just so glad you're in my life. I'll never regret meeting you.

I'm seeking for an answer, but I'm just scared of being rejected. and I hope that you would succeed in everything you do. Hope you never regret every choice you make. Stay happy. Carve a smile on your face, because you look the prettiest when you smile.

You were my reason to live.

Smile :)

Hahahaha :) thank you for making me smile beautiful :) You know you can make rainbows appear in my heart :) Continue smiling and kill everyone with your smile :DD 

When all hope is gone, I know that you'll be able to carry on :) You're the best thing I have in my life :) I'll never let you go :) Even when the skies turn green , I'll still be loving you , even when the mountains starts trembling when they hear your name :) I'm starting to regret not spending all my time with you. :(

If you ever feel like letting go, I'll never let you fall. Every single might be our only one, what if tomorrow ever comes? I don't wanna start regreting not telling you all of these things. Oh girl, I'll stand by you, I'm forever yours faithfully :)

Two strangers start to learn how to fall in love again.No matter which road you gotta take, I'll be there for you. Remember all the things that we wanted, remember all the memories that haunted, I'll never let go.

Byeeee . :)

Cold lonely night.

You can take everything I am , you can break everything that I am . Go on and tear me down , cause there's nothing left for me to live for. I'm standing in the night , waiting in the dark , thought that you should be here by now. But everything's impossible when we were not meant to be.

Everything feels so in place , because when I look at you , feels like a dream come true. But I know that I can't stay , and it's impossible for me to walk away. There is nothing but the rain , nothing but the teardrops , nothing but the cries of heart.

And I hope that you'll see this , because you're the only one I'm living for. You're worth my life. Can you hear me now ? Trying to figure out this life , everything can will okay with you by my side. Now, I lost you , what do I do ? You're the best I ever knew , should have known right from the start that I'm deleting you from my heart .

So Imma let everything go , everything that had you in it , is going out of my heart . But remember , that you have a smile that could light the sun when it loses it's source of light , remember that you can make a rainbow appear in someone's life . I'll do whatever it takes to see you smile . Because I'm forgetting the past and starting all over without you.

One day when the stars aren't shining , when the birds stop singing in the morning , that's when I will finally forget you .

Cold lonely night.

You can take everything I am , you can break everything that I am . Go on and tear me down , cause there's nothing left for me to live for. I'm standing in the night , waiting in the dark , thought that you should be here by now. But everything's impossible when we were not meant to be.

Everything feels so in place , because when I look at you , feels like a dream come true. But I know that I can't stay , and it's impossible for me to walk away. There is nothing but the rain , nothing but the teardrops , nothing but the cries of heart.

And I hope that you'll see this , because you're the only one I'm living for. You're worth my life. Can you hear me now ? Trying to figure out this life , everything can will okay with you by my side. Now, I lost you , what do I do ? You're the best I ever knew , should have known right from the start that I'm deleting you from my heart .

So Imma let everything go , everything that had you in it , is going out of my heart . But remember , that you have a smile that could light the sun when it loses it's source of light , remember that you can make a rainbow appear in someone's life . I'll do whatever it takes to see you smile . Because I'm forgetting the past and starting all over without you.

One day when the stars aren't shining , when the birds stop singing in the morning , that's when I will finally forget you .

Birthday :)

It's my birthday yesterday :DDD But I didn't really do much because it was a schooling day . :(
I'll start my story from here kay ? :)

I woke up at 8 :) lol , kinda early for a birthday boy , hahaha , and then went out for brunch with mum at San Francisco :) We ate pasta with the carbonara sauce :) it was awesome :DDD But wasn't that full though , reached home at about 12.00p.m. and the went straight to school :)

It wasn't much of a big deal eventhough it was my birthday , so I continued the normal routine in school :) And then at 6.50 , when it was time to go home , my friends ( Wai Mun, Mi Jia, Yee Ming, Haikal, Rahulla) splashed water on me -.- I was so freaking wet kay -.- I was so wet when I was walking home, I practically walked with water dripping . -.- Those people that walked past me were like : "Aaronnnnnn, what happened to you ? :O"
I replied : "It's my birthday la , and my so called "friends" were so kind that they gave water as a birthday present :)"

When I reached home, my  brother were laughing at me , awesome family huh ? :P lol .I couldn't bother about it so I went straight to the showers :) After the hot bath, we had our a little family reunion :D Prayed for the food and started digging in :) The food was prepared by my grandma :D So I enjoyed it a lot :)

And my auntie , bought a mango cheese cake for me :DD It was nice :) anyways, I just wanna thank all those that made my birthday possible :) thanks guys :D love ya forever :)


Byeee :)

Speechless.

So it's over , yeah we're through . My last move , is to un-friend you .

I really thought you were the one , smiling like no one ever could . Cause right from the start , we could feel something that was true . 

Thinking about you , but still I don't have a clue . How am I ever going to forget you ? If my heart was beating fast for you , would feel the same way for me too ? 

Every song reminds me of you , every little thing you did , still goes through my mind . But good times never last forever , do they ? Nothing could compare to the way you loved me , nothing could ever make me stop loving you .

A word is a word , until you mean what you say . And love wouldn't be true love unless you give your heart away . I have to go , but always know , that I love you so . Goodbye .

Sarang hae yo . Cause in my heart , we'll never be apart . Every little part in me , would love you until the end of time . Everything in me , belongs to you . My heart and my soul . 

I'll stand here , looking like a fool , just to cover up the truth . Even after the loneliest nights , I still will love you . 

Need you now .

So much for a happy ending . 

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind cause you'll never know how much you mean to me . Even if it's just for a day , I would like to spend it with you . I would die to have that wish come true . I'll never wanna walk this path alone , but seems like nothing's going right . So much for a happy ending ehh ? 

I'll never find the words to say anymore , cause you're the one I dream of everyday . Memories so close to me but still they fade away . There's no use looking back or being stuck there wondering . Nothing gonna's change a thing . Now , it's so clear , I need you dear .

There's a dream I've been chasing , so bad that I wanted it to be reality . I'll raise up into the sky and then ask God why , that you and I gotta let go , cause I really need you now . Nothing could be compared to your love , nothing could ever be compared to your smile , you make life seem so perfect , there's nothing I would do to change that  . We've talked about the silliest things , We've did the stupidest things , We've make the funniest jokes , but still , we gotta let go .

I've never felt so happy , to see that little sparkle in your eyes , you just bring me into a whole new world . I saw so many pictures before I saw you , but now , all I see is you . You make my dreams come true , you make me look like a silly fool , and what can I ever do , just to make sure you feel the same way too ? 

I could just dream of you day and night . It's just so heart-breaking to know that I'll never get to hold you in my arms , now that you're happy , I guess I just gotta let go . I know it might seem like impossible , but all I ever wish for is a little place in your heart , then only I can start dreaming about impossible stuff . But if I don't mean anything to you , I seriously can't blame you , cause it was me that started loving you . 

Is love really that terrifying ? It leaves people crying , makes people feel like dying , what can I do to stop hurting , but above all ,  I'll never stop trying , cause I know that nothing would ever change this feeling .


We were made to be , suppose to be , meant to be , but we didn't make it happen . Dreams would still be dreams , wishes would still be wishes , fairy tales would still be fairy tales . Nothing's going to change that .

We feel so close , but still , we're far apart . I close my eyes , I look away , that's just because I'm not feeling okay . Our last goodbye , letting go of everything I've once held unto . All that I wanted is to hold you close , almost believing everything was not a dream , but fairy tales don't exist . And this love isn't true . 

Love stories wouldn't come true . Let's go on dreaming and believing that this wasn't a dreamy fairy tale , promise me , don't ever let anyone hurt you . I'm just so sick of the love songs , so tired of this tears ,  I'm finally done with wishing you were still here , in my heart , there's this little fear . I know you'll move on , but I'm hoping you'll move on with a smile on your face , don't let me down , because you'll always be the brightest star in my night sky . 

Let everyone see you as who you can be , and let yourself shine like you've never shine before , and let me know when you're not happy , so I could change that frown of yours . Never stop smiling , cause that's what you're best at . Let the world see your smile , so it could light up this world , and bring it to a whole new level . Even in the darkest jungles , nothing could keep out of reach from you . Continue being yourself , continue loving , caring , smiling and laughing , and never let anything bring you down . Remember that I'll never stop loving you , and I'll do anything to see that smile of yours . 

Let your smile light up the world . Let your kindness be in control of the universe , and your love , shed across the planets . I'll love you , even if loving you meant sacrificing my life , I wouldn't mind . 



But it's time for me to face the real truth , that I'll never ever stand a chance with you .

Love Song .

Take me to where there are the moon and the stars , to where you are .

It's so hard to live without you , but I have to . That sad song plays in my mind again , how am I ever gonna let you go , I must be going out of my mind thinking about you .

No one here to save me . That key to your heart , tossed into the sea . I'll never stop looking for it , but will God let me find it ? I don't know , I don't wanna know , I don't want you to know .

I find meaning in your name , if you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see , I'll be the light to guide you . With a broken heart , I'll still love you . Don't ever forget how much you mean to me . My eyes are closed , I feel my breath , I dream my dreams . Time stop now , let me be with you forever stuck in this moment of life .

Cause you're my all

Watching you walk away .

What hurts the most is being so close , having so much to say , and finally , watching you walk away .

When it all comes down to an end , I'll still be here , holding your hand . But if you believe that you belong with him , promise me you won't let anyone hurt you , always remember that I'll be here for you even if it kills to give you away .

You know you take my breath away , but would you ever feel the same way ? Yeah , I love you . That's a fact that I'll never regret . I hope you're okay , with the person you love , I'll pray for your happiness and that you'll never be alone .

What should I do to make you stay ? What should I do to make this love never fade ? What should I do to make the confusion go away ? All I know is that I want you to stay . 

When you look me in the eyes , and just tell me that you love me , I'll swear that I'll never leave you .

Happiness is just so far away , I'm always out of words to say when I see your face . What if you felt the same about me ? You're always running through my mind , but who's that special someone in your heart ? I really would die to know the answer . 

Tell me , if you're really in love with him , just don't keep me hanging on . I'll never regret meeting you in my whole life , you colored my world with rainbows , you're the candle that lights up my path , you're my strength when I'm weak , you're my eyes that cause me to see . And I thank you for everything you've done in my life , I'll never forget you , your name , your smile , your eyes , your hair , the way you treat me with a sincere heart . I L.O.V.E YOU .

All fears will be ceased whenever you're near , all hopes will be lifted high when you're here . All the hopeless dreams come true when I see you . What else can I do without you ? You make the impossible seem possible . You make every wild dream come true . You put smiles on my face effortlessly . You make me go crazy , and there's nothing I would change to feel this way . 

How do I tell you ?

The problem is you . You keep asking me what's the prob , and you left me speechless , cause it's you making my head spin round and round , it's you making me unable to make a right decision . It's just so hard to talk to you nowadays , all these times are hard , yeah , they're making me crazy and they're killing me . 

What would you do if you were in my shoes ? :( I really need help , but normally , I ask you for help , and no one else , you're like my problem solver , but now , you've turn into a problem to me . :(

Cut's and injuries ain't nothing compared to this . This is way below hell . What do I do when there's no other way to avoid you ? Do I just fake a smile and force a laughter ? hell , what do I do now .

I've got nothing to say anymore . This love story is just killing . I shouldn't have dreamed a dream that would never come true . My mistake , for mistaking this love . This was just a dream , nothing would come true , would it ? :( 

Bye . Nights . Thanks for putting a smile on my face for so long . 

I can't take this any longer .

Every word you say feels like a shooting star . 

I can't live without you . Even if it's just for a day . I could just dream of you without realizing , your perfect smiles make my day , the way you look me in the eyes could kill me , every word you say makes me happy . I really love you . I can't stop the way I feel about you . 

Even if it's for a day , I would like to spend every single second of it with you .  If only I could see you everyday , just to see your pretty smile and your awesome face , just to put a smile on my face . You make my problems disappear , you make my head spin round , you make me go crazy all night long , make me feel so happy , make me go so crazy , make me spend my nights just thinking of you , and I can't say anything else but I love you . 

If you could just whisper I love you to my ears sincerely , that would really mean the world to me . You're the moon in my starry night , and my sun in the morning light . You light up the way in the dark , but please , start showing me the way to your heart . 

You showed me what it's like to fall in love , so easily , you took my heart away . Love isn't that complicated , is it ? I just know that I've fallen for you , and I seriously love you . You just seem so wonderful , lovely . Words just couldn't describe you .

Each word you say , each song you sing , each laughter that you make , each smile you put on your face , could all take my breath  away . Even through the darkness of the night , you seem to my candle light , and lit up every single path in my life . You're the rainbow after every rain . You're the sunshine that shines everyday , you're the stars that fill up the empty sky , you're everything in my life .

Not a single word in the dictionary could tell anyone what you are to me . I would try my best to put a smile on your face cause I want you to be happy , even if you're happy with some other guy , I would pray that God blesses you two . Just for the sake of your happiness , I'm willing to do everything and anything . 

bye readers :) Thanks for reading all the posts all these while :) Love you guys :)

SAYONARA :D

Even if it rains all day long , I'll be here for you .

When it all comes down to an end , you'll realize that the one that truly loves you is the one you neglected the whole time .

I don't care what they say , I don't care where you're from , don't care what you did , I just need you to love me . How you got me going crazy is still a mystery , can't just get you out of my head .

Remembering all those memories just makes me miss you more and more , somehow , I can feel happiness when I'm with you . Who could ever make me feel that same way again ? And I want you to know , that no matter what , I'll never let go . I wouldn't and never could . No matter which road you've chosen , I'll still be here cheering you on . 

You've took a part of my heart away , I don't know what to say , what could I do to make this feeling go away ? Nothing . I know there's no way escaping this type of love . I know that this is what true love means , what forever means . 

I just can't figure it out . With you is where I rather be , I just wish you could be here with me , if only we could spend a night in the night sky , but I just don't know why , we weren't meant to be . 

Well , I just don't know hot to say this , the words got me choking .When we finally meet again , I'll know it's right , when there would no longer be sleepless nights , and all these would be worth the fight .

When we were miles apart , when we were holding everything back , when it was easier to be pretending , when it was easier than telling the truth , When we knew no matter what we did , nothing could bring us together , nothing could make us happier , nothing could make our lives better . We forced laughters , we faked smiles . Until now , we still don't know the truth . 

Don't ever hold back what you feel , it's never a good way .

Bye 

Where and what now ? :O

If only the skies was full of shooting stars , just to make one small wish come true , cause I really wish you were here . Put your hands together with mine , let me hold you throughout this journey of life . And I will take you in my arms , and hold you tightly and never let you go , till my life is through , this I will promise you . I would do anything just to have you in my life .

I know this feeling won't go away , I know I'm in love . But I'm terrified . What do I do now ? Watching love fail over and over again . For the first time , I found love . But is it true love or puppy love ? :o

You're never ever gonna be alone , from this moment on , I would never let you cry , i would never let you fall . When all hope is gone , I'll still be here loving you till the end .

Right or wrong , it's just so hard to tell . I lie awake till 4 in the morning , only got you in my mind . Just tell me you need me too , and let me stay right beside you . Going out of mind , just looking for a direction to go . 

No matter where I am , even in the most deserted areas of this planet , no other girls could take my heart away , and you're the one to blame . But what is it that takes your breath away , I have no idea , but hoping that I'm the one on your mind .

When your eyes meet mine again , I would never waste the opportunity to tell you the pain I've been through when there was no you . I wish I could talk to you for a while , just 10 little seconds , is it too much to ask for ? 

And when all else fails , I would be here cheering you on , when everyone hates you , I'll still be loving you , when the world is against you , I'll fight for you . And when I'm thinking of you , I hope that you're thinking bout me too . 

You take me to whole new world , full of love and happiness . Knowing that I'll never hold you like I did before . I can see it has change , I'm standing here but you don't see me , giving it my all just for a better change , don't wanna ever let you go . And the thunders are striking , standing in the rain , hoping that something would change . In the darkest nights , I hope that you'll remember the times we had . Now , I think it's really over .


Bye .

What happens next ?

When it all comes down to an end , we'll be in this mess and no longer friends . As long as we still love each , and know that we'll no longer be together , makes this love such a bother , as long as we know forever is not here , then we might be just a little happier .




Hello people :D How's everyone out there ? :P Sorry for posting after a few months ? :O Yeah , I was kinda busy . SO .... Some people owe me stories and stuff :P When you guys pay your debt ? :P Hahaha . Anyways , exam is like next week , so I won't post much , just study hard and I pray that we all would get great results ?
:P Hahha . I might fail la , because I didn't go to school for like four weeks because of basketball :D Cool right ? :D Hahha . I'm so dead man -.-


And to those who knows where you stand , And who you are , and what you were born to be , I respect you . I really do :) And to those friends who really motivated me this year , I thank you :D Because of you guys , my life was so much easier . And I appreciate it .




To all the Lick Hung-ians of the year 2010 , I barely see you guys anymore , come on man , we should go for a movie or something , I admit that Lick Hung is best school ever (obviously) . Please just keep in touch ? Miss you guys so so so so so so so much D:






That's for this month , byebye :P

Wrong choices at the wrong times :'(

It os wrong for me to try to make things better ? :( Somehow , everything I do just make things worse . I'm sorry :( I'm trying to kay ? :( Every small problem turns into a big one .

It's just a small matter , why does it become such a big matter after a while ? :( I'm really sorry :(
I don't wanna make things worse . Stop saying that I'm not trying :( Can't you see how much pressure I have now ? :( Please stop everything now :(

I know that I might have some wrong doings at the very wrong time :( But I don't mean it la . I just wanna put in a small effort for a change . I know , I know , there's a million weaknesses in me , I'm never perfect , I'm just trying to make a change , make it easier to live :( I might as well kill myself now , well , I don't deserve any of this :( But , I just really intended to make life better for me . Am I being to selfish ? :(

I'm sorry if I did anything wrong :( I'm sorry :( I don't wanna make anything worse anymore :( I'm sorry :( I'm sorry . I'm sorry :( I'm sorry :(


Bye .

Missing puzzle piece ? Not completed ? :S

Love .

What does it mean ?
Why do we bother to keep it in our lives ?
Will it keep us happy all the time ?

I haven't found the answers for those questions . I'm a seeker . Looking for the answers . How many times will it take to get things right ? Wanting to start again . But still can't turn back time , have to face the mistakes I've made , the wrong roads I've chosen .

Just wanna fix things . I'm stronger now , through the obstacles I faced during the past few years :)
Try your best to make me fall down , but trust me , you're gonna fail by doing so :P Cause I know with each failure I get better . No matter what I'm climbing up these mountains . Life's an adventure . We can climb the highest mountains if we want to , get up and say : 'I can do it!' . Why don't we stay optimistic and continue the journey we have ? :) Smile for me , smile for yourself , smile for your family , smile for your teachers and smile for your buddies :)

Blow the candles out , as long as I have you , the path will be lighted up with your love :) I still have you . Still got you , so who should I be afraid of ? :) As long as I have you . Neither death nor anything on Earth scares me .

Done :)

SAYONARA :) :)

Why am I always making life so complicated ?! D:

I don't know what to do anymore . Am I falling for you ? Am I not ? I'm not sure D: I don't wanna break anyone's heart , and I don't wanna get mine broken too :(

Life is just so messy sometimes , I don't wanna live in misery . Someone please help me D:


Okay . Time to be happy :) Hehe , so , how's life for everyone ? :) Boring ? Fun ? Miserable ? You know you can always talk to me if you have issues :DDD Hhehe , I'm good at helping :)

I miss LH so so much la D: Ever since we left there , I never seen Kent Leang or Kent Seong , I never seen Wei Ming :( All my good friends are gone :( I wish I could just turn back time .

Yeah , I thought I found a great friend in my school , but then he went to Catholic -.- Hate him la . But luckily he stays opposit me la , so I can go bash him whenever I feel like it :DDD

Wow , wine is killing man :D It's nice but it kills your brain :D So , I've decided not to drink anymore :DDD ( It's a lie :P ) Hahaha :)

Ohhh , and I'm sorry for not posting for a long long long long long long time D': So sorry , just so busy with hw and stuff D:


Okay , gtg now :) Byebye . Have a great day in school for the afternoon sessions :)

Sayonara :D

Love ... starts with just a :) and ends with a :(

Let's just leave everything behind and move on . PRETEND that you never seen me before . Pretend that you never LOVED me before . Pretend that you never gave me your HEART , cause I think it's time to RETURN it to you . Nothing's perfect , we gotta fight for stuff we love . But you ain't fighting for this relationship , that clearly shows that you I'm not important enough to you .


Let's just end it . Movc on , I don't mean to be rude or mean , but moving might and leaving nothing behind would just cure your broken heart . Forget everything . Time would heal everything .

Letting go would be the best choice for you since you don't trust me anymore . Love is about trusting someone with you heart . But if you don't , those I love you's that you said would all just become a lie just to make someone happy .


Bye